my horoscope *so true :)

Sagittarius - The Sign of the Centaur

In the Sagittarius' character there are combined such qualities as reliance, affability and courtesy. People who were born under this sign come along with the people easily, but it is much more difficult for them to become close friends.They do it very very cautiously. The Sagittarius usually loves sports, nature, traveling , to learn and to win . The Sagittarius likes all doing in the company surrounded by close people. His mind and body are both requiring constant intellectual, emotional and physical loading.

Friends

They are the nicest friends in the zodiac. These people are not a meet-for-coffee friend. They are doers and they make the best travel companions. Their most lasting unions and friendships would be made with people born from March 21 to April 19-26, and July 21 to August 20-27, or in their own period.

Health

They will be more inclined to suffer from rheumatism than from any other disease, also from a delicacy of the throat and lungs, and skin troubles. Physical problems, however, are apt to be the result of unrestricted diet or an over-indulgent pursuit of other pleasures. Sagittarians are also subject to an overpowering urge to gamble, which can be ruinous for some. They also, especially in their latter years, suffer from the nervous system.

Color

Their most suitable colors are all shades of violet and mauve and violet-purple.

Stones

Their most favorable stones are amethysts and sapphires.

cruel world

why is the world so cruel ? why would you hurt this kind creature , this innocent and harmless creature .
i just want to say to all who do this shit .

Look inside
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor

So you say
It's okay to kill those whales
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some pervert who can't think straight
Your point of view is midieval

F*ck you
F*ck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

F*ck you
F*ck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get
Do you get a little kick of being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you
Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
Your losing control of it and it's really distasteful

F*ck you
F*ck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

F*ck you
F*ck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate and it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Look inside
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor

F*ck you
F*ck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

F*ck you
F*ck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate and it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

tak exited langsung untuk esok .

well ,as you all know , esok school concert , a musical journey la katekan :| serious tak rase exited langsung , i know it will be a flop , disaster , busuk i ckp , busuk !!! arghhh . i hate this .i pergi nk support abg je , and other friends , tapi sbb kan mamat tu , malas duhh nak dtg. somemore i belum beli ticket . so mcm , nak pegi nk duduk mane . kan . malas ahhhh . tpi tak pegi karang abg touching lak . urmm . pegi je lah , b4 concert end i balik , sng ctew . hmm , i geram sgt kowt dgn die , malu kan org . suke2 je , u shemale pronstar !

from natalie with my 110% support !

You Dam Hypocrite/Pervert>Yeah that's right, Hypocrite/Pervert. I've bottled up to many things and now it's finally popped. Well atlest by writing, I've released some of my stress.Well, if you don't know what the word HYPOCRITE and PERVERT means, here's my brief explanation about it.

HYPOCRITE - a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs. {{in other words, lying pretenders}}

PERVERT - To cause to turn away from what is right, proper, or good corrupt, to bring to a bad or worse condition, {{somone who's really a sick person}}

Why I'm writing about some socall hypocrite/pervert? Well, HE DESERVES IT. {{and there are others writting bout him aswell. Might aswell write something bout him too}} This would probably be the first time I've hated someone soooo much, I don't think even words can express how I ACTUALLY feel right now. And you guys know how dam patient I can be, hell, no even my mum and dad can make me blow my top like he did.

Well JOJO, congratulations!! Your the first f****** person on earth to make feel useless, you dumbass. I don't really know what's your real name, I don't even think I want to know. And if I do found out what your name really is, I promise myself I would NEVER name my son {{if I have a son in the nearer future}} that utterly, horrified, very very VERY rude name of yours. Just cause Your from the Kementerian and you've got higher power, doesn't mean that you could do whatever you like, you freaking pervert. Oh I'm so scared, cause your from the top, WHATEVER LA!!! Being top means giving respect and earning it, obviously you rather just come in and shout at everybody while criticizing the high school girls body shape.


You think that you could just come in the very last minute and change everything that we worked so hard for, and do whatever you like. Go ahead, shorten the concert, make it boring, I don't care if people come and say "Shit, I'd expected more from this concert, so dam short and boring, wasting my money only, NOT WORTH IT AT ALL" People are expecting to see some modern music as well, not just only traditional you dum Jojo. And cutting the concert short proves that your f***** up brain is full of camel-shit.

On top of that you Hypocrite, you think your sooooo religious and such a good role model, guess what? Your not you dam pervert. Over these past few days, you've been citisizing me and my friends body. How dare you come up to our faces and say "Do you guys know your ##### are so big, can't you cover them up??" WHAT THE HELL MAN You idioit, we've cover up almost everything until the human eye could not see our freaking chests, not even the guy teachers complained about it. You on the other hand kept your eyes on the girls, watching parts of our body when you should really hear us sing and watch us dance. What's your problem man??? And just cause I forgot to wear tudung in the dewan, and I stood up for myself, doesn't mean that you could punish me and my girls by wearing even more clothing, cancel the finale song and put the blame on my choir members. Seriously, no wonder your still single and probably would be all your life you sad, sad little brat.
One more thing, could you please stay away from all of my choir girls?? Seriously stop watching us like some desperate puppy dog everytime we go in to perform. If you even so touch one single hair on their heads or hurt their feelings, I, no WE will seriously make your life miserable {{or we'll just sue you}} Seriously, nobody likes you. Go suck wind and die... I don't even think that the wind even wants to be suck in by you.
And with that I end my speech. Sorry for this really really bad up post with rude languages. Seriously, I'm sorry if anyone reading this is feeling offended by my rude post. Except him.

best kena sound depan ijat :)

hahaha , nie yang i nak cakap WTF , FCUK , dan segala benda yang sewaktu dgn nye .
arghh , k pendek kan cerita , i pegi skolah hari nie , and stayback , sbb nak tolong my beloved brother ALI ZIKRY . kankan , pastu i lepak dewan , and i pakai tudung cam half , sbb i baru balik it's panas and rambut i baru treatment , pastu this pegawai ape la tah , sound i dengan rasa bangga nya , "nie apsal ko pakai tudung mcm nie , tak reti pakai elok2,ko ingat panas , neraka lagi panas "*with laugh. amboi3 kurang hajar nye , i mean i know u berkuasa and ur older , but hey , tak blh ke ckp elok2 . siallll kowt , sound je dpn pengetua i tak pedulik , but depan ijat ?? urghh!mcm *&!(@&$^#*$%)$) ! you really dont wanna hear that . so dgn rasa panas telinga i pun pakai la elok2 . and ijat pun keluar , shit , kalau dpn org lain i really dont mind , but not ijat :((((( .
i wish you jatuh bas ! hahaha , *ala ala azreen .

p/s:don't mess with a thai blood . nanti daulat . hahahah , *i wish .

aizat umar norizan .

rase mcm semalam je u kiss tgn i , and smile ur heart at me ,
rase mcm semalam je you pujuk i gile2 sbb i nie kuat touching . *dgn u je kowtt .
sebab you saje yg sanggup pndang i and pujuk i smpai i okay ,
u saje yg sggp bagi sepenuh2 perhatian u kat i .
u saje yang stay with me smpai petang even you dah penat gile .
you saje ..takde org lain .
rase mcm tadi je you cakap i sayang you .
pastu bagi i pakai tie you , and pegang sweater you pastu ckp i bini you . *i sggo kawin ngn u punn :)
rse mcm tdi je you duduk sebelah i pastu buat muke comel you .
you saje yang buat muke comel i rse comel :)
you saje yang buat i gelak tanpa sebab , *eh myb sebab i gile kowt , bak kate you la kn..
and you saje yang boleh bagi i sayang you .
rase mcm time dinner tdi je u call i sebab i lambat reply text you .
rase mcm time dinner tdi je you cakap yanngg ta maw r touching :)
tdi je .
tapi semua yang i rase tu semua salah , sbb ape yang i rase , dah lame takde .
and semua tak kan jadi lagi dah . semua sebab salah i .
sebab satu langkah kecik yang punca satu masalah besar .
i tak blh regret you , sbb kalau i regret time will turn back ?
tak .


and now, i jatuh . sekuat2 mya yang semua org ckp tu . jatuh and maybe tak blh berdiri lagi .
what goes around come back around .
so people are so wrong about mya kuat . because sebelum nie mmg mya nmpk kuat , sbb guy yg tinggal kn die semua tak mcm org yang baru tggal kan die . org yg bru tggal kn die , org yang paling bermakna dlm hidup die , die tak tak pernah nampak org nie sampai org nie pergi and betul2 pergi dari hidup die . sekarang baru die sedar , and die tak blh buat ape2 , except cry cry and cry untuk ubatkn hati sndri .


biggest apologies to aizat umar norizan . semua salah i . i tak pernah mengaku i salah , but nie mmg salah i . maybe i deserve ape yg i dapat .

thnks for everythng .

ili dayana hadi .

ili dayana hadi .
yea , she's my new baby :D
haha , my twin .
we have lots o thing in common , when i say lots , it's a lot ! :DD
well i'm really glad i found her , thanks to daniel hadri hadi ! i meet ili :)
thnkss baby ! owe u ! :)
and now i can share my problems wth her , and die betul2 faham ! i syg die gile2!
hee . and thts why i post this blog . sbb i nk semua org tawu i syg die :)

i miss you .

i miss you , i really miss all the memories we had , i miss ur smile , i miss ur laugh , i miss ur everything , and how i wish i can turn back time , sadly no one can . hm . i really miss you . losing u never crossed my mind , i don't want to face this number 1 fear at all . but i had to , god know's i'm trying my best to be strong . :(

fahim hafifi .

moving forward .

you never realize u got something so special rite infront of ur eye's until u actually lose em . hm .

pusat kraftangan kuala lumpur part 1 :)

wohh . hari nie sumpah penat gile . plus i demam :|
hee but i had fun , so much fun . sbb today we went all out . haha
best sgt buat batik , even tho mine gile buruk , haha , hey atleast i buat sndri oke ! tak suruh spe2 .
sorang2 je . heee .
aite , then then . jalan2 amik gmbr mcm org gile .haha . byk je gmbr ohh :D
but takde kat i lagi . so i update nie je . pictures coming up soon :) and now i letih maw tdo :P
byeeee..

i dont get it .

why kene hide and stuff , mesti ade sumthng ur hiding kan , hmm , i can stand this anymore , find suke hati lahh . hide fuckin stuff .!!

tomorrow's a blast .

urm , yea esok ade lawatan ke pusat kraftangan , i have no idea where it is , but hell yeah i'm exited . artsss :) , oh ya arts , about arts , i cut my finger during art class last week , while i was carving my wood , hee . it was a bloody situation , haha , byk darah , and cantikk -,- i suke lahh .
and now i have hard time playing guitar , ergh . oh well , it's hard but i can do it . teehee .
andand , i went to t.melawati today , because mydad ruin my wood . DADDY ! -_-'
aiyahh , well he is my dad , so ape boleh buat , haha , i pegi beli kayu baru , and buat semula ! memenatkan?you think? haha . takpe takpe . i don't mind , it's just . hari jumaat nie last day untuk hantar , urgkk ! takpe2 adib ade adib ade . haha . i mintak tolong adib je lahh. heee , husband adik tiri i :) kalau faham bagus lah , kalau tak buat donno je . HAHA . urm that's about it . exited lahh about tomorrow . mesti best :)
well i nk siap kan my carving sikit lagi , sambil online myspace :) byebye .

morning like this .

shit , hari nie i turun awal pun terlepas bus jugak , ahhh .
bas tu cam gile la , i turun awal die lagi awal , i turun lambat die tak dtg lgsg . agak bagus la kan .
haih , bile i rajin nak pergi bas pulak buat hal . esok sebelum subuh lah turn , haha kan senang XD
anyway , i'm still thinking about what he said , hm , if i mengalah , he'll regret it , for sure . so better i diam dulu kowt :|
masalah la dgn hidup complicated nie ! and i'm like what ? 15 and a half , shit . by the time i'm 20 i'll have white hair all over X) grr ! dah dah! i think i nak pegi mkn ubt dulu , painkillersss :) bye all . and goodmorning :)

tumbling down ,

okay2 , firts of all , if you bace post nie , kalau rase nk kutuk me just keep it to yourself , if ade ape2 nasihat , let it out k :)

awrite , actually my life was like a singking helicopter and yes it's as bad as it sound , teruk gile almost kene kick out of school because i tak hadir . yar la , ikut perasaan sgt , sedih je layan . and sakit and can't go to school , so mmg salah i lahh . and i couple dgn sum1 i kenal sekejap je , it's not like die jahat but i buat keputusan terburu buru , end up hurting myself and other . nak tutup mulut org je , urgh and why i care pun i tak taw . hm , and we broke up after few days , sbb i tak boleh love him . but we're still friends , i tak suke enemy but people suke sgt berenemy kan i , HAHA , ayat ape tu..i lose 2 of drug ! yar i'm saying it out loud , fahim hafifi and aizat umar ! i hilang 2 orang yang tuhan saje tawu i sayang diorang nie . but yeah , sekarang nie pandang pun tak . it's so hard to breath and to live without this two . mcm nak mati jugak la mya since diorang takde .
but nasib baik mya still have my babies , safiku,azreen,ewan,fyfey,amir haziq,areeq,amir yusuf,amalina dalila,nik natalia,firdaus,adib shahanom,shafiq murad,hariz, and banyak la people around me , you guys are the best , because u guys stick with me thru stormy weather . i love you guys so much .because of you guys mya still standing strong !appriciete korang :)
but i still miss those two , i still miss them a lot , tak pernah terlintas pun in my mind untuk gadoh dgn fahim and ijat . it's like a dream ! serious tak percaya :| i rindu diorang :(
so hope i boleh move on and walk straight again without tumbling down .
hope mya still kuat and mya is still mya . no one can change that .
i guess this is the end of my post . thanks for reading !

imran rafiq

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifat
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskan dirku
Kerna aku
tak mampu tuk memnaggung sebuah cinta sempurna
Darimu
Darimu ohhh
Darimu ohhhh

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirmu
Aku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan
Ohhh

Sempurnanya sifat
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskan dirku
Kerna aku
Tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu
Darimu ohhh
Darimu ohhhh

drowning in my own tears ,

i shed my tears million times before .
and i know its all about me .
my fault and i .
i've become someone im not in minute ,
and i've hurt one heart in a split second .
how did i became someone i hate .
i love him and i know his the greatest among them all .
but why did i even try to convince my self that i'm strong enough to face reality ,
oh god yes i'm still hangin in fantasy .
im sorry honey , i didn't mean to hurt you .
in whatever ways .
i wish for you too remember my face and the sound of my voice .
even if its the last thing you want to hear .
i want to be in your memory as the sweetest things that ever happen .
i want you too be near forever .
but not as my special someone .
but as my friend who i trust the most .
because i just realize ,
i can't handle this things just yet .
i'm angry at myself ,
and i'm angry at the spirit i never found .
i beg for forgiveness .
i'm really sorry for what i've done .
baby , forgive me .
please dont ever forget me , or run away from me .
i need you by my side ,
i only need my time alone ,
i'm not ready for all of this .
but when i am , i'll be reaching out for you .
your name will be carve in this heart .
i still need you as my Guardian Angel .

his more important than him .

i have to be kill silently .

someone beat me !

i think i made a mistake . -_-'

history repeat itself .

even if you don't tell me i know,
i know that we can't be together,
continue on the path that we are on,
don't feel sorry for me,
when i want to go closer to you,
i mentally call for you
so that your heart can rest completely
even if i call you ,
your heart can't come to me,

only you only you
only wind only wind
like moonlight ,
i can only follow you around,
loneliness seems better than a love
that will end in separation
i will think of you more

i am like a fool
only wind only wind
i want to show you that i change my mind
and end up my feelings once more
so that i can see you
just once more your image from behind

yes i didn't even know one bit
about how painful this would be
i didn't even know that i would see love
in the curve of your shoulders

even when i want too separate myself from you
part of my steps seems to go back to you
what will i do if
you forget my name , my face?


please do me a favor
and show me only your happy image
so that you who is busy with love
won't see the tears that falls from my eyes
my heart doesn't have time to console itself


so what should i do if your heart hurt?

only you only you
only wind only wind
even today i laugh and cry as i walk along
because if i see your image
tears of happiness will form

i am like a fool
only wind only wind
i want to show you that i change my mind
and end up hiding my feelings
so that even love is not possible
that this last forever.

"when you become happy , you get nervous.as much as i laugh , i think that tears will come and fine me.i feel like the life water is in me,will all come out in tears.and if i collapse , i won't be able to open my eyes"

i'm back on my feet .

lame je ta update :)
my life was like a sinking helicopter past month .
urghh well i'm back on my feet .
tho i lost few friends of mine .
i think i can still walk with pride .
i'm shutting those old piles of past life chapter .
and opening a new one ,
with who ever sticking with me ,
i cry my hidden tears for so long and now i came too know it's not even worth it .
so move on is the only choice i have .

one ring from my phone .

in my dream last night ,
i was flying a kite ,
then i saw a cloud of light ,
suddenly i caught u in sight ,
u were dressed in white ,
then i woke up in fright ,
i was sad it was not right ,
now i have no appetite ,
all i can is goodnight ,
wish u were here by my side .