CHAPTER 1
"ramadhan is here"
first of all , alhamdulillah , im still breahing to celebrate this year ramadhan ,
tapi banyak benda yang i nak share with everyone about my year ,
it's been one tough year for me ,
bulan2 terawal tahun ni , seronok sangat , i meet new people ,
i gain new friends yang sangat2 baik towards me ,
all thanks to my new school :)
i had the best time ever with my teachers
i thought it was the best year of my life , well i was wrong .
starting pertengahan tahun ,
i lost my friends , well not all of them , but still i lost few .
and that hurts , badly hurt (!)
i tak sangka orang yang baik , and very well thinking , boleh salah faham and abandoned me just like that . first of all i lost fahim hafifi fathulmubin .
well his a very very good guy , i end up saying goodbye to him ,just because mulut orang , and it's still killing me inside benda ni tak sepatutnya jadi , i memang sayang dia , and hilang dia , memang buat i mengangis yang teramat lah lama . and i hope he can still be my friend , sempena bulan ramadhan dan hari raya yang bakal menjelma kannn :) urmm . then , dalam kes fahim tu , i jugak ada gadoh dengan orang lain , guys near me , izwan , amir fareedz and others .
and dalam blog ni , i want izwan to know , i am very2 sorry for what ever thing i did , i am sorry . sebab i love all of my friends . i really love you as my friend izwan . sorry -_-' hope you can forgive me . i also hilang budak lain , sebab diorang boikot i . oh well , i takde buat salah dengan korang , so takde reason i nak say sorry . and this year , yang paling worst case scenario is losing aizat umar norizan .
benda ni mungkin akan haunt me for life i think .
i buat the biggest mistake , selama 15 tahun 8 bulan i hidup , tak pernah i buat salah macam ni lagi , i actually hurt the one i really love in my life , i know lepas ni , i tak akan dapat curi hati dia macam i buat sebelum ni , but i tak kisah as long as dia dapat maafkan i dengan ikhlas , itu je i mintak , aizat is the person i always need , and i push him away , i know im such a jerk .
and lastly is losing ridzuan ayman ramlan ,
yeah , i know , every each one of my friend think this is all a joke , well you guys , i am seriously not joking , we actully decided to break up , i mean as bestfriends la ,
actully i la yang decide , sebab i think im such a burden , and i tak maw someone i love and care about , kene tanggung an idiot burden like me , well first of all , he has a girlfriend , yea , what you guys r thinking is rite , so i tak nak ada apa2 salah faham between me and his gf , well gf kali ni macam serious je , so i know it will be bad if i stick around , i mean se serious mane pun gf die kate she's not jealous , but shes still a gf , die mesti tak suka bf die rapat dengan another chick kan , hmm ,
and one more thing , ewan jadi orang tengah selama ni , i tak suka , kesian kat die, lepak ngan i masalah , lepak ngan diorang pun masalah gak ,
so thats why i decided to break it off , well it may look very easy , but it's very hard ,
and god knows how i feel every night when i think about what i did .
when i think back every single memories between us , perghh !
nanti satu hari keluar paper front page "mya died of sadness" oh hhhh !
R.I.P ..
well ramadhan tahun ni , takde makna sangat la , suasana puasa pun hilang pegi mana i tak taw .
i hope things change , i really do -_-'
and whats the matter with my sister pulak , nak pindah pergi australia ? com on , have'nt god tortured me enough ?
end of chapter 1
CHAPTER 2
"H1n1"
well as everybody knows , h1n1 now is so popular we can make a trend out of it ,
"hey mymom died of h1n1 , hey my dad too"
well im so worried about people at school , thou im not in it , my mom tak bagi pergi , even my brother .
we both stuck in this house with only internet and astro , okay thats cool , i know ,
but bosan gila staying at home macam orang gila !
i really miss everybody at school , even thou setiap kali i nampak ijat i lari masuk toilet and cry , still i memang rindu sekolah,
i mean even pak cik kantin mean alot too me , i nak pegi sekolah and makan benda benda yang tak de banyak khasiat sgt tu,i nak masuk lambat and always terlepas dari denda sebab kawan2 i pengawas :) i nak :|
but oh well , i have too obey that lady ! she's meann , HAHA -_-'
so bagi sesiapa yang tak sihat please la wear your mask mister ! it's dangerous oke !
maybe after raya i will go back to school .
i insist !
end of chapter 2
CHAPTER 3
"ramadhan is here"
first of all , alhamdulillah , im still breahing to celebrate this year ramadhan ,
tapi banyak benda yang i nak share with everyone about my year ,
it's been one tough year for me ,
bulan2 terawal tahun ni , seronok sangat , i meet new people ,
i gain new friends yang sangat2 baik towards me ,
all thanks to my new school :)
i had the best time ever with my teachers
i thought it was the best year of my life , well i was wrong .
starting pertengahan tahun ,
i lost my friends , well not all of them , but still i lost few .
and that hurts , badly hurt (!)
i tak sangka orang yang baik , and very well thinking , boleh salah faham and abandoned me just like that . first of all i lost fahim hafifi fathulmubin .
well his a very very good guy , i end up saying goodbye to him ,just because mulut orang , and it's still killing me inside benda ni tak sepatutnya jadi , i memang sayang dia , and hilang dia , memang buat i mengangis yang teramat lah lama . and i hope he can still be my friend , sempena bulan ramadhan dan hari raya yang bakal menjelma kannn :) urmm . then , dalam kes fahim tu , i jugak ada gadoh dengan orang lain , guys near me , izwan , amir fareedz and others .
and dalam blog ni , i want izwan to know , i am very2 sorry for what ever thing i did , i am sorry . sebab i love all of my friends . i really love you as my friend izwan . sorry -_-' hope you can forgive me . i also hilang budak lain , sebab diorang boikot i . oh well , i takde buat salah dengan korang , so takde reason i nak say sorry . and this year , yang paling worst case scenario is losing aizat umar norizan .
benda ni mungkin akan haunt me for life i think .
i buat the biggest mistake , selama 15 tahun 8 bulan i hidup , tak pernah i buat salah macam ni lagi , i actually hurt the one i really love in my life , i know lepas ni , i tak akan dapat curi hati dia macam i buat sebelum ni , but i tak kisah as long as dia dapat maafkan i dengan ikhlas , itu je i mintak , aizat is the person i always need , and i push him away , i know im such a jerk .
and lastly is losing ridzuan ayman ramlan ,
yeah , i know , every each one of my friend think this is all a joke , well you guys , i am seriously not joking , we actully decided to break up , i mean as bestfriends la ,
actully i la yang decide , sebab i think im such a burden , and i tak maw someone i love and care about , kene tanggung an idiot burden like me , well first of all , he has a girlfriend , yea , what you guys r thinking is rite , so i tak nak ada apa2 salah faham between me and his gf , well gf kali ni macam serious je , so i know it will be bad if i stick around , i mean se serious mane pun gf die kate she's not jealous , but shes still a gf , die mesti tak suka bf die rapat dengan another chick kan , hmm ,
and one more thing , ewan jadi orang tengah selama ni , i tak suka , kesian kat die, lepak ngan i masalah , lepak ngan diorang pun masalah gak ,
so thats why i decided to break it off , well it may look very easy , but it's very hard ,
and god knows how i feel every night when i think about what i did .
when i think back every single memories between us , perghh !
nanti satu hari keluar paper front page "mya died of sadness" oh hhhh !
R.I.P ..
well ramadhan tahun ni , takde makna sangat la , suasana puasa pun hilang pegi mana i tak taw .
i hope things change , i really do -_-'
and whats the matter with my sister pulak , nak pindah pergi australia ? com on , have'nt god tortured me enough ?
end of chapter 1
CHAPTER 2
"H1n1"
well as everybody knows , h1n1 now is so popular we can make a trend out of it ,
"hey mymom died of h1n1 , hey my dad too"
well im so worried about people at school , thou im not in it , my mom tak bagi pergi , even my brother .
we both stuck in this house with only internet and astro , okay thats cool , i know ,
but bosan gila staying at home macam orang gila !
i really miss everybody at school , even thou setiap kali i nampak ijat i lari masuk toilet and cry , still i memang rindu sekolah,
i mean even pak cik kantin mean alot too me , i nak pegi sekolah and makan benda benda yang tak de banyak khasiat sgt tu,i nak masuk lambat and always terlepas dari denda sebab kawan2 i pengawas :) i nak :|
but oh well , i have too obey that lady ! she's meann , HAHA -_-'
so bagi sesiapa yang tak sihat please la wear your mask mister ! it's dangerous oke !
maybe after raya i will go back to school .
i insist !
end of chapter 2
CHAPTER 3
"i'm sorry i'm not perfect"
i think i owe everybody an apologies , sebab i banyak buat masalah dengan semua ,
my bestfriends , my ex's , my friends , semua la .
i wanna put a new chapter in my life , make life worth living , even thou it's just for a moment .
i feel very guilty past month , weeks and days ,
i keep thinking back about all the people i've hurt , and how i miss them all .
my ex's , nick , sadiq , imran this are the one i've hurt ,
i'm sorry .
im sorry to all of my bestfriends , sebab i lied .
i cakap i dah okay about aizat , but surely i am not , i masih cry myself to sleep ,
i masih buang all of my medicine kat toilet ,
i masih tahan myself dari makan .
i still do that . and im sorry , i cuma tak nak u guys worried .
i boleh jaga diri i , even thou i buat semua tu .
im still standing .
and im sorry to the one i dah buat masalah ,
im sorry i dah bagi korang problem ,
am sorry for the one who hates me ,
im sorry for the one i've made you cry .
i mya azizan is SORRY for what i've done .
i want everybody to know that .
also i teringat balik about everybody yang selalu around me dulu ,
mia , emma , aida . and much more , i sayang korang sangat sangat ,
im sorry ive become someone im not .
i miss you guys , infect i miss all of you .
IM SORRY
end of chapter 3
CHAPTER 4
"chocolate strawberry cake"
and here i am eating chocolate strawberry cake , for you guys maybe it's great , but for me it's not , because i am not a cake person , im more to double cheese burger !! *crying in silent , i told everything reminds me of that fat ass .
hmm , to everybody , again i am sorry , and i am changing my self , im becoming a better person , all i need is forgiveness ,
from each one of you .
i really love you guys . i need help from you guys , to make me a better mya ,
i wanna open a new mini chapter in my life , so that when i die , i know my short life was worth living .
guysss ... :)
all i need is another chance , everybody deserve a second chance rite ? HMMM
end of chapter 4
CHAPTER 5
" thank you and i love you"
and this is for the one still standing here with me , for the one who care so much about me ,
no matter what i do , no matter how i behave , they are still here with me , i love you guys till my last breath
this is for the one who dont have any hates for me .
just love and care ,
it's going to be hard for me to pull out each names , but i know you guys know who you really are .
to all my bestfriends and friends ,
THANKS for everything , THANKS for being here for me , THANKS for loving me so much ,
only god knows how much you guys meant for me .
i will always be needing you guys , forever .
this is for the one who love me ,
THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU ...
this funny little words may sound simple but it's meaningfull ,it's how i really feel about you guys , i love you guys .THANKYOU !!
end of chapter 5
-FINISH-
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