i'll wake up soon .

part 1 ;

just found out about him with her,
i feel pathetic and yeah he did it ,
die actually balas dendam :)
i cry the whole night thou , after a very tiring day .
my eyes are swallowing but im goin to be okay .
i can make it thru the rain .
on my own .
and everytime i feel afraid i hold tighter to my faith .
hmm , you got me damn hard aizat .
thank you .


part 2;

and today , i feel very tired , i didnt sleep and im also fasting .
im totally tired , but i have fun lepaking with ili tadi , love you abyyy :)
and semua yg i bagi dengar my new song like the song . thankful
you know who i dedicate it too , right ?
hmmm , im very tired

part 3 ;

this is where the part i say , goodbye .
im taking my pills , and i hope i'll wake up soon .
bye bye ....

aril abdullah

this is ARIL , his a guy that i really really sayang :)
his my friend ! .
sayang youu la gemuk :) jajaf gile :P

story of my life .

CHAPTER 1

"ramadhan is here"

first of all , alhamdulillah , im still breahing to celebrate this year ramadhan ,
tapi banyak benda yang i nak share with everyone about my year ,
it's been one tough year for me ,
bulan2 terawal tahun ni , seronok sangat , i meet new people ,
i gain new friends yang sangat2 baik towards me ,
all thanks to my new school :)
i had the best time ever with my teachers
i thought it was the best year of my life , well i was wrong .
starting pertengahan tahun ,
i lost my friends , well not all of them , but still i lost few .
and that hurts , badly hurt (!)
i tak sangka orang yang baik , and very well thinking , boleh salah faham and abandoned me just like that . first of all i lost fahim hafifi fathulmubin .
well his a very very good guy , i end up saying goodbye to him ,just because mulut orang , and it's still killing me inside benda ni tak sepatutnya jadi , i memang sayang dia , and hilang dia , memang buat i mengangis yang teramat lah lama . and i hope he can still be my friend , sempena bulan ramadhan dan hari raya yang bakal menjelma kannn :) urmm . then , dalam kes fahim tu , i jugak ada gadoh dengan orang lain , guys near me , izwan , amir fareedz and others .
and dalam blog ni , i want izwan to know , i am very2 sorry for what ever thing i did , i am sorry . sebab i love all of my friends . i really love you as my friend izwan . sorry -_-' hope you can forgive me . i also hilang budak lain , sebab diorang boikot i . oh well , i takde buat salah dengan korang , so takde reason i nak say sorry . and this year , yang paling worst case scenario is losing aizat umar norizan .
benda ni mungkin akan haunt me for life i think .
i buat the biggest mistake , selama 15 tahun 8 bulan i hidup , tak pernah i buat salah macam ni lagi , i actually hurt the one i really love in my life , i know lepas ni , i tak akan dapat curi hati dia macam i buat sebelum ni , but i tak kisah as long as dia dapat maafkan i dengan ikhlas , itu je i mintak , aizat is the person i always need , and i push him away , i know im such a jerk .
and lastly is losing ridzuan ayman ramlan ,
yeah , i know , every each one of my friend think this is all a joke , well you guys , i am seriously not joking , we actully decided to break up , i mean as bestfriends la ,
actully i la yang decide , sebab i think im such a burden , and i tak maw someone i love and care about , kene tanggung an idiot burden like me , well first of all , he has a girlfriend , yea , what you guys r thinking is rite , so i tak nak ada apa2 salah faham between me and his gf , well gf kali ni macam serious je , so i know it will be bad if i stick around , i mean se serious mane pun gf die kate she's not jealous , but shes still a gf , die mesti tak suka bf die rapat dengan another chick kan , hmm ,
and one more thing , ewan jadi orang tengah selama ni , i tak suka , kesian kat die, lepak ngan i masalah , lepak ngan diorang pun masalah gak ,
so thats why i decided to break it off , well it may look very easy , but it's very hard ,
and god knows how i feel every night when i think about what i did .
when i think back every single memories between us , perghh !
nanti satu hari keluar paper front page "mya died of sadness" oh hhhh !
R.I.P ..
well ramadhan tahun ni , takde makna sangat la , suasana puasa pun hilang pegi mana i tak taw .
i hope things change , i really do -_-'
and whats the matter with my sister pulak , nak pindah pergi australia ? com on , have'nt god tortured me enough ?
end of chapter 1


CHAPTER 2

"H1n1"

well as everybody knows , h1n1 now is so popular we can make a trend out of it ,
"hey mymom died of h1n1 , hey my dad too"
well im so worried about people at school , thou im not in it , my mom tak bagi pergi , even my brother .
we both stuck in this house with only internet and astro , okay thats cool , i know ,
but bosan gila staying at home macam orang gila !
i really miss everybody at school , even thou setiap kali i nampak ijat i lari masuk toilet and cry , still i memang rindu sekolah,
i mean even pak cik kantin mean alot too me , i nak pegi sekolah and makan benda benda yang tak de banyak khasiat sgt tu,i nak masuk lambat and always terlepas dari denda sebab kawan2 i pengawas :) i nak :|
but oh well , i have too obey that lady ! she's meann , HAHA -_-'
so bagi sesiapa yang tak sihat please la wear your mask mister ! it's dangerous oke !
maybe after raya i will go back to school .
i insist !

end of chapter 2


CHAPTER 3

"i'm sorry i'm not perfect"

i think i owe everybody an apologies , sebab i banyak buat masalah dengan semua ,
my bestfriends , my ex's , my friends , semua la .
i wanna put a new chapter in my life , make life worth living , even thou it's just for a moment .
i feel very guilty past month , weeks and days ,
i keep thinking back about all the people i've hurt , and how i miss them all .
my ex's , nick , sadiq , imran this are the one i've hurt ,
i'm sorry .
im sorry to all of my bestfriends , sebab i lied .
i cakap i dah okay about aizat , but surely i am not , i masih cry myself to sleep ,
i masih buang all of my medicine kat toilet ,
i masih tahan myself dari makan .
i still do that . and im sorry , i cuma tak nak u guys worried .
i boleh jaga diri i , even thou i buat semua tu .
im still standing .
and im sorry to the one i dah buat masalah ,
im sorry i dah bagi korang problem ,
am sorry for the one who hates me ,
im sorry for the one i've made you cry .
i mya azizan is SORRY for what i've done .
i want everybody to know that .
also i teringat balik about everybody yang selalu around me dulu ,
mia , emma , aida . and much more , i sayang korang sangat sangat ,
im sorry ive become someone im not .
i miss you guys , infect i miss all of you .
IM SORRY

end of chapter 3

CHAPTER 4


"chocolate strawberry cake"

and here i am eating chocolate strawberry cake , for you guys maybe it's great , but for me it's not , because i am not a cake person , im more to double cheese burger !! *crying in silent , i told everything reminds me of that fat ass .
hmm , to everybody , again i am sorry , and i am changing my self , im becoming a better person , all i need is forgiveness ,
from each one of you .
i really love you guys . i need help from you guys , to make me a better mya ,
i wanna open a new mini chapter in my life , so that when i die , i know my short life was worth living .
guysss ... :)

all i need is another chance , everybody deserve a second chance rite ? HMMM


end of chapter 4

CHAPTER 5

" thank you and i love you"

and this is for the one still standing here with me , for the one who care so much about me ,
no matter what i do , no matter how i behave , they are still here with me , i love you guys till my last breath
this is for the one who dont have any hates for me .
just love and care ,
it's going to be hard for me to pull out each names , but i know you guys know who you really are .
to all my bestfriends and friends ,
THANKS for everything , THANKS for being here for me , THANKS for loving me so much ,
only god knows how much you guys meant for me .
i will always be needing you guys , forever .
this is for the one who love me ,
THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU ...
this funny little words may sound simple but it's meaningfull ,it's how i really feel about you guys , i love you guys .THANKYOU !!


end of chapter 5

-FINISH-

i miss you .

i miss everything about you .
i miss your sense of humor .
i miss your hand that always touch mine .
i miss your smile the only reason im smiling .
i miss your eyes that is so mesmerizing .
i miss your sweet voice that keep me sleeping at night .
i miss everything about you .

i'm sorry baby :(

by AREEQ part 2

by AREEQ

sony ericsson w350i is now mine :)

yay yay ! im now using this phone :) teehee . suke :)

seriously ill .

hey guys , mymom tak bgi pergi concert , so mcm sedih gile . and i just pass kek raja kat danail hadri donut gemuk comel . die la pass kat diorang nanty , oh and i jmpe ili tdi :) first time lah .
i demam pun die hug i lagi . syg die :) .
anyway i mmg sakit gile2 , demam main2 ngn i , jap ok jap tak . sakit betul hati . and i rase pelik satu badan . pening pun ade la skit2 , i jadi paranoid gile , i takut nak tdo , sbb takut tak bgun dah , haha , yar i know mcm klaka but really i rse mcm tu , i jadi paranoid gile . and my heartbeat pelik gile , beating mcm bass dj tiesto . haha .gempak kan . well i hope budak smk wangsa melawati buat yang tergempak . i mmg betul2 sorry tak dpt dtg . i nak sgt , and my abg pun tak marah i . hmm , but i rase b'salah sgt :(
but i tak pilih jadi mcm nie , sorry again !

concert tonight and i fee like being drag to hell .

malam nie konsert sekolah , and i rasa macam separuh mati sekarang . i donno why tiba2 sakit nie .
teruk2 plak tu . nak kate kene *nate babi*(H1N1) takde la ciri2 mcm nk kene , but sakit nie pelik2. i cant even stand straight , nak pengsan , mkn je nk muntah . rase mcm heartbeat laju semacam , so i decided to go to clinic , bgtaw mama , kene beta jap , pastu die suruh siap . again g klinik , haih . letih gile nie , and jap lagi azreen nak dtg , we're going to the konsert together . i know u must think that im crazy , sakit2 nk g jugak , but buat cam ne , i dah beli cake for raja , bday die today , kesian die nanty . budak kecik tu i syg , haha . and one more thing , abg (cikgu ali) pye show ade , tak kn nk miss , nanti touching sebulan pulak . so im still going , pegi klinik and im still going to the concert..tapi guys , seriously nk pitam ohh ....k la you guys . nka out . tata ! doa kan i okay ..